I was missing something. The steps were working and made sense to me. Ostensibly, by accepting my personal powerlessness over people, places and things and having faith in a power greater than myself; my behaviour changed; followed by an attitudinal shift; evolving to a living reality and a spirit journey as i becomes we in how it works: you can’t keep what you have unless you give it away. and as you practice this missive designed as simple instructions for daily living; you will land in a place of authentic self. I was in with all my chips.
I am unable to land, remember. I cannot see a viable place. I figure i will know when i know. But i don’t know what the fuck that even means or what i’m looking for….
And just like i may never have attended my first 12 step meeting had i not crashed my car drunk and gone to jail; i was dragged to a yoga class in a moment of spontaneous acquiescence, more or less against my will. I crawled out of shivasana, disrupting a room full of integrating souls. I had not been able to sit still my entire life. But i came back, one day at a time because it was real, felt transformative and became the unanticipated access point for my wheels to touch down. The place where self resides that cannot be seen, only known as the sum experience of cellular memory.
What yoga gave me was the recovery of discovery. The spiritual principles behind the 12 steps are remarkably consistent with yoga’s 8 limbs. What does this look like? According to my teacher, Nikki Myers, “the issues live in our tissues.” Words, be they written, spoken, sung or flung cannot release the energy contained in the body. To do that we must move. And to be in our bodies, we must first learn what it means to be physically present. When we connect the mind, body and breath, we create space for movement; the necessary condition for change.
This is the ahasana of my yoga recovery journey. The goal of my practice of y12sr is to integrate spiritual principles with practical yoga interventions, like keeping an open heart while watching your back. This practice is woven with the fellowship of a meeting—holding safe space is the primordial purpose.
Please come and meet yourself on the mat. Never say never. And know that we all have to let go to catch on.
Jude Bursten would have described herself as the least likely person ever to become a yoga practitioner no less RYT200 certified. As would anyone who ever knew her, ever. until that actually happened. “i didn’t know what i needed in order to ask for it, even if i could have asked for it.” Today she uses that specific example to guide her life, not just her yoga practice. NeverSayNever. Jude is a certified leader of Y12sr, a yoga practice based on spiritual principles of the 12 steps of recovery. This is a meeting, not a class. It is focused on self awareness using practical yoga interventions for moving energy in our bodies that live as “issues in our tissues.” Like the 12 steps, the meeting serves as a resource to create the space in our heart, mind and body necessary to change, be of service to others and to practice these principles in all our affairs. Jude is a graduate and practitioner of the Mona mantra: be yourself, everyone else is taken. Authenticity and integrity are the cornerstones of her message.
Y12sr is a donation based class. All proceeds support the provision of y12sr programs in correctional facilities and institutions.
This meeting is open to anyone in 12 step recovery. Out of respect for the studio and the personal recovery of those in attendance, we ask those in active addiction to refrain from attending.